Would it fly?

It's 4:37 am and I am still awake feeling terribly disturbed.
By what? I have no idea. Pms does this shit to you doesnt it?
I am back to the mode where i dont feel like getting out of
my house. Thats merely impossible. I feel zoinked.

But I dont know how I can stare at facebook, literally stare at
it and I was actually thinking of the most random thing ever.
I was actually early morning dreaming? I could see so many
balloons flying away. So colorful. So many yellow ones,
they are so beautiful. Oh how I adore yellow! Then suddenly
a little black boy stood there, trying to let a black balloon fly
up high just like the rest. But it doesnt seem to. The next
thing you know I am back from my wormhole. I like this
dream. I see potential. I hope when I go to bed now, this
dream continues. If novels can come up because of a dream,
mine has potential too.

And I cant stand it that It's mat's win for Singapore idol again.
Couldnt it just be a female for once? fuck this shit. Elias is right!
It's a government plot to give sg idol to malays all th 3 years so
that they wouldnt join the malaysian army in times of need! nice
one biatch! Time for me to head to bed before i start pmsing.


P.s Bush I miss you so damn much! I love how you are miles
away and you still fucking make me laugh so bad! LOVE YOU
biatch!

Be my Fireproof GOD

I NEED A CHANGE! A MIRACLE! Fireproof made me
realise how much I actually need GOD in my life. How
I actually spat a thousand times at his face, rejected him
yet he never leaves me! Its like I can never kick him away.
But why is it so hard to pick up the bible, sit down and read.
But why is it so easy to finish up the the twilight saga in days?
Ahhh and addictions, I have got a couple of them that I have
to kick away. Addictions which are going to tear me down, if
I fail to act. And I am not very proud of the actions I have
done for the past one year. I dont have the guts to spill them
out, but I can assure you they are some bad things. I want to
change, I DO! I am going to turn 20 and it's ridiculous to
continue fooling around. I know I can do this, because I want
it!

God help me be a better person! Amen!

"I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly
believed that I didnt want you anymore.
The most absurd, ridiculous concept-
as if there were any way that I could exsist
without needing you! " - Cullen; Edward

UNdiscovered

Well I found someone who blocked me from finding them on facebook.
It amazes me how I am actually capable of doing it, causing fear. Maybe
cause I know your darkest mistake? your sin which I can spread? SO you
are afraid of having anything to do with me? I like the feeling of someone
fearing me. *evil grin. Alright, Alright Im not going to push this. Well I
just wanted to say mistakes are mistakes I dont quite adore rubbing them
again and again. What happened happened, It all happened for a reason. I
know thats fucking cliche, but well if i dont forgive you who's going to forgive
me? So why burden myself right? Im just very taken aback by th fact that
people actually bother to block me. Hah! Thats that. I am excited and dying
for 3 things to happen :

- Twilight marathon 3rd DEC
- Killer's concert 24th JAN
-Big Night out (MUSE) 3rd FEB


Im sexcited! and Christmas is 3 weeks away :))
Month to celebrate is here people!

HELP ME PLEASE?

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HEY GUYS,

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I APPRECIATE THIS YOU GUYS :)

LOVEEE ALL OF YOU WHO HELP ME.

Shingz

I have neglected my blog space lately. Well blogspot you need to
blame twitter for that. I update so much, I dont even plan to mention
myself anymore. But none the less, some things can never be said in
twitter. Out of many people who chose advertising as their majoring
subject, I am one of the 6 lucky bastards from my class who got it.
I am all thankful that i got what i wanted. The word "advertising"
in almost all my profiles just came true. Satisfied. But upset for those
who didnt get their first choices. My sincere apologies. I suppose it
all happens for a reason right? Okay next 6 months will be all FYP
ads ads ads and more ads! Then im a diploma grad. Okay right now
I need to sleep. I know im typing bullshits now. nights world!


BOOMZ!

insist

I bet you’re all alone, head down in your arms,
listening to sad songs, trying to keep warm.
I bet you’re outside, face up to the rain,
searching for the stars, finding only clouds of grey.
I bet you’re all alone; I’m wrong: I bet that’s me.

Pictures, nah they dont pain a thousand words, more like a gabizillion.

the bestfriend :)


usual private party






thank you handsome stranger!


david monkman and daryl lee getting hyped at the back.




more on fb mierdas!

Will you help me by staying away?

Partying with the girls and the boys was fawesome. Not a good
week to party, thanks to the whole F1 madness. And we spent 170
bucks on 13 tequilla shots. Fyi, the amount we paid for the shots can
actually help us open 2 bottles in paramount. But yeah, we had our
fun as usual. The girls stayed over my place and yeah bullshits done
as usual. So we were stranded along clarke quay till 7 am just cause
we couldnt get a cab. We saw lotsa fights that happened. I liked it
actually. Rebel and zirca is filled with assholes.Like the banghra (the
group of people who wear turban and dance for weddings and stuffs,
where some are blessed with amazing features) guy who cant stop
calling me now. ASSHOLE. Attica, the place for joy. oh ohhhh.. i used
think the guy who did my hair was reallyy cute. He's an Israeli, selling
point here. Terribly good looking. We met outside attica randomly.
Totally talkinggg and he's msging me now. I love the idea of having
an Israeli friend/fling... Okay more updates soon. Heavy images
should be uploaded in fb soon. hopefully not the one with me in towel.
okay thanks bye!


“You can't turn back the clock but you can wind it up again”

come back to me?

Im suppose to be finishing up my Design Drawing. But I cant seem to
function well at all. Im so exhausted. I just wanna do everything im not
suppose to. But im typing in hope to let everything out, so that i can
resume doing my work. So i have officially shifted house. New room
filled with boxes mostly. But i still have air to do my work. It;s a bipolar
feeling being in this room right now. Im suppose to feel glad for the larger
space. Then suddenly i miss my compaq space. My little house. I miss it.
So the process of packing and unpacking has been a pain in the butt. So
while packing like 2 nights ago, I saw alot of cards and letters given to me.
Well it goes way backk to secondary school days. I just had to read them.
I felt younger. I felt like I had lesser responsibilties. I know im growing up.
And honestly deep down, I am actually quite afraid. Then I saw a valentine
day card I got for last year. I was so numb. Was not sure how i was feeling
that instance. But suddenly, I wanted to cry soo badly. But i couldnt. I wanted
to tear it and throw it away. But i couldnt. I shouldnt. Then i had to dump
everything into the box quickly before i could start questioning my feelings.
The pain was all fresh again. But im glad im okay now. Well i have made up
my mind on keep moving forward no matter what happens meanwhile. I
couldnt let a card tear me apart, no way! But im all good now. I actually
feel better. somehow I do. Cant wait for Rad to be back in a few days. Then
it's partyy. 25th of Sept, i cant wait!

Tooche everyone.