Even the stars refuse to shine

It's been really long since ive blogged hasnt it? Well I just had
no necessity to. Until right now. I feel so scared of the future.
But it sucks even more cause I know there;s no need to be afraid
at all cause it's going to be bright & alright. But Im battling with my
feelings so hard just to think straight. Im scared to leave my room,
my house, my family, my friends, my life, my country.. It's such
an irony. I was so looking forward to it but now that it's all
happening, im scared. But Im only human right? Ive never been
alone. But i need to remind myself that Im going to be 21 in a
couple more months and my adult life's about to start afresh.
I've gotta be a big girl because big girls don't cry.