My best dress, with you.

Paranoia is in bloom

2010-09-18T00:03:00.002+08:00

This is when a blog comes in handy. I really
dont know how much longer I can hold this feelings
in. I really dont. I feel like I am about to explode anytime.
My mind keeps fucking with me. But at this very moment
I envy anyone who has courage to express their feelings.
Cause I clearly do not. Paranoid much.

Even the stars refuse to shine

2010-08-21T00:25:00.003+08:00

It's been really long since ive blogged hasnt it? Well I just had
no necessity to. Until right now. I feel so scared of the future.
But it sucks even more cause I know there;s no need to be afraid
at all cause it's going to be bright & alright. But Im battling with my
feelings so hard just to think straight. Im scared to leave my room,
my house, my family, my friends, my life, my country.. It's such
an irony. I was so looking forward to it but now that it's all
happening, im scared. But Im only human right? Ive never been
alone. But i need to remind myself that Im going to be 21 in a
couple more months and my adult life's about to start afresh.
I've gotta be a big girl because big girls don't cry.

K.O

2010-08-05T01:32:00.001+08:00

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
And you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like in I'm a race
but I already won first place

I never thought I'd.. fall for you as hard as I did
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids
Every mornin' I look at you and smile
Boy you came around
And you knocked me down

yeap you seriously got me thinking about 
our life,our house and kids

Changes are good.

2010-07-09T03:15:00.002+08:00

I've finally changed the blog skin like after a year or more.
It's time for changes to take place. With my hands spread
towards the sky I am going to scream as loud as I can "Change,
Im ready! Bring it!"

Blessed

2010-05-24T00:08:00.003+08:00

Today is my last day in Nanyang academy of fine arts. I have come a long
way to get here and to be called a designer, i feel blessed. From a typical
neighbourhood school to this, couldnt have asked for more. Im full of thank
you's today cause im contented with life. Im growing up to be the person my
DAD and mum has always wanted me to be. Im not assuming that. When
I saw my mum's eyes when she came to my grad show today, she was looking
at my work and her eyes had the sparkle. That satisfaction omg it brings joy.
Not just my mum, even my sister and my brother in law. I love them too much.
I know my dad's proud of me too. Oh i miss you alot btw papa sometimes i
wish for you cause i know life will be better. The things we can do would be
amazing. But none the less its all been good :) Oh and thank you Atiqah Azman
for the balloons. My bestfriend made my day and i love her to bits! Thank you
babe! Its been a good grad show a very good one and im glad! Thankful too.

Thanks to : My family, Atiqah Azman, Nadiah Niazi, Nur Atiqah Haroon,
Lim Xiao Ping, Ryan Zah and Radhia Kazura though you are miles away
im always thankful for you! Last but not least, THANK YOU TO JESUS CHRIST
FOR BEING MY PILLAR, always.

Goodnight worldd
God Bless You!

I never told you

2010-05-04T23:55:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD!!! I HOPE YOU CAN SENSE THE HAPPINESS IN MY TONE.
Yeap im done with nanyang academy of fine arts. Im months away
from holding onto my diploma cert. Fyp submission was done
yesterday and i wont say it was breeze or anything. But it was
decent. Thursday morning is my final presentation in nafa. The
final one with the external assessor who's a Creative director
from a prestigious ad firm. I m not going to act tough by saying
im not nervous and shit. Cause im damn nervous. Im scared i might
swallow my words. I feel like ill forget my whole campaign the moment
i open my mouth. Geez! Im going to sleep,eat and live with positive vibes
for the next 2 days.

Now that ive graduated, its about time i figured what im going to do
with my life. Thank God for universities. It comforts me that im not
all that done with school. All i know is that im not going to do my
uni here in singapore. I dont want to actually. Only because i know
the world has better offer my design dreams. You wanna listen to my
plan? even if you dont want to, you have to since you're reading it
dumbwit!

My plan is to be a PR of the country of the choice most probably Canada
or London since the unis that offer me the courses of my choices are
mainly there. PR so that i get cheaper fees of course. And yes i mean
Canada. It seems like one place thats not over rated. not yet at least.
And guess what filming is going to happen in vancouver? GUESSSSSS :D
freaking twilight saga: breaking dawn of course. Not yet. but damn soon please.
Okay screw all that. But canada has been a choice cause of what my lecturer told
me when i was began my year 2. IT offers cheap good design degrees compared to
aussie and all. But come on LONDON IS THE DAMN DREAM. IF IM REACH
ENOUGH, GEEZ I WILL BE IN LONDON RIGHT DAMN NOW. All my
bands are so there and please dont forget muse! And i even dreamt they
were my wedding band. If that ever happens, i will dump my fiance and marry
dom even if that is his 11th wedding. AAAHAA DOMMMM HOWARDSSSS... YOUR
SMELL FILLS MY MEMORIES. kk sorry back to blogging. yeap you heard me,
i need to get outta here. But everything stops me cause i love my life
right here. I have an awesome social life, there's no need for me to run
away. But i need to chase my dream right? So lets see where im headed to
but my mum and sister have agreed to support me whereever i go as long i send
them gifts through fedex of what have you. Lets see how it goes.

Meanwhile im going to happily work save some money cause i have tonnes of
holidays coming up. First up on the list, its bali in july w/ the best
friends! WOOHOO. I CANT WAIT. Then we'll see what im up to. and i know
life brings me what it wants to cause im waiting for it with a fully equipped
packed bag, literally baby.

2 weeks till i profess my love and change me life. :)

S o l o

2010-04-26T00:49:00.002+08:00

Im feeling better maybe cause im going to see my bestfriends tomorrow
after one freaking week. I miss them quite abit. But at least I see
2 of them tomorrow. One more week and Im freaking done, I know ive said
this a billion times. But you should be able to sense the excitement im
feeling. 3 years of tertiary education is almost done!!! I wont deny ive
learnt alot. From a typical local secondary school to a design school
which has ties with one of the best uni's in london, boy am i fortunate.
Okay ill cut the crap and talk about post graduation when it happens.
And i must say this, london town is getting closer and closer. It's just
a matter of time then it's hello london town!! Okay im back to finish
up below the line items. And it;s amazing having a sister. And even more
cooler having the best brother in law in the world! I heart long drives.
Goodnight world, problems can wait!

PCB

2010-04-22T01:48:00.002+08:00

Im close to breaking down, throwing everything away and running in circles.
Fyp submission is in 2 weeks and its finally getting to me. Im blogging in
hope of feeling better, nothing but better. I get so ambitious sometimes
and when it backfires i feel fucked. It's not like i couldnt see it coming.
Then why? Im amazingly weird like that. Anyhoos im going to bite my hand,
grit my teeth or chew on whatever to hold on for another 10 days. Then im
free from the design world for awhile. I need a break, im getting rusty.
I wanna work in the zoo after grad. And of course travel around, party
party party, meet the other 6.6 billion people.Then finally get into a
university abroad. All that can wait, right now fyp awaits!Okay i feel
better knowing the line isnt far away and ive got so much more stored up
for the coming days ahead.

New moon

2010-04-09T23:44:00.003+08:00

You know something, my life right now is just the twilight series.
New moon to be precise. Well it's just that characters in new moon are
far more closer to perfection. So im bella, then we have C as jacob and
D as edward. So im in love with D orbviously. But C is in love with me.
So D has no idea of how crazy im about him. But new moon's not about
edward. So this right now is not about D. So C is really charming and
is the next in line for the romantic issue. But he's so much of a friend.
Too much of a friend. But i like it that he has feelings for me so that
he never leaves. It's like im totally selfish. Just like bella said "I
never want you to give up only cause i want you around." Yup thats the
scenario with me. And i think i just pushed him to give up, part of me
feels happy and part of me feels shitty. Im pmsing. Dont blame me. I wanna
slap him if i can thats how annoyed i feel. But who am i kidding, overall
im the root of all the pain problems im facing. Just like bella, im the
biggest slut around. at least for tonight.

When I look at you

2010-04-06T12:18:00.011+08:00

Everybody needs inspiration,
Everybody needs a song
A beautiful melody
When the nights so long

Cause there is no guarantee
That this life is easy...

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When I look At You I see forgiveness
I see the truth
You love me for who I am
Like the stars Hold the moon
Right there where they belong
And I Know I'm Not Alone.

Yea when my world is falling apart
When there's no light to break up the dark
That's when I, I...
I look at you

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you

You appear just like a dream to me
Just like Kaleidoscope colors that
Cover Me, All I need every
Breath that I breathe don't you know
You're beautiful...

Yea Yea Yea

When the waves
Are flooding the shore and I can't
Find my way home anymore
That's when I, I...
I look at you
I look at you

Yea Yea Oh OH OH

And you appear Just like a dream
To me.

Repeat mode all the way and did I
mention Im graduating in like 4 weeks?
Freaky much.

Vote earth!

2010-03-27T12:16:00.005+08:00

Well I have pledged to vote earth tonight, I hope you would too. We sorta
need to show mother earth we actually care about our future. So i sincerely
hope whoever that reads this participates. You know you could just turn
off your switches then go to a near by mall with your family or friends. Would
help you spend some time with them and at the same time participate in an
international event.

Anyways, I realised i have not blogged a proper post in such a long time. I
justthought i should update with what's happening around me/with me. Did
i also tell you Im in love? If you are someone thats close to me you'll know
i dont say it easily and even if i do, i usually dont mean it. But right now i do.
I mean it, like ive never meant it before. I have not felt this feeling in such a
long time. The feeling shy/butterfly feeling. Awesome feeling. Sometimes i
feel like im floating. I feel like smiling all the time. I feel happy. Its like you
know when im obsessed to someone or something i make it too orbvious.
Its just me. Look at Edward and the whole twilight thing. Look at my room,
i have a twilight corner for pete's sake! hah! Anyways back to the topic,
Im in love officially.

But he doesnt know. I feel scared. Its like it almost happened last year during
my birthday. HE sorta found out i liked him. But i got scared. I turned the arrow
away by dating other guys. So he never got a chance to express himself and i
never wanted to hear anything. I thought i was so over him. But who am i
kidding? Hah! never was.Which is why everyone else ended up being boring
to me or at least i guess so. So ive made up my mind. Ill be telling him how i
feel when i graduate. On the day itself. So that it's not weird to date a school
mate.Im not going to hope for anything to happen. Im just going to express
myself, and be happy with me life that i did for the first time ever. Life's too
short to hide feelings right? Im finally going to do it after a year! Tell me im
amazing! hahaha. Too much info? Alright ill shut up now.

Oh and did i tell you placebo was amazing? Too amazing. Ive uploaded pics
and vids on facebook. Though i love dom, steven is muh fucking gorgeous.
One person I love with tattoo! Now that my brit pop craze is at ease, Im in love
with miley cyrus's when i look at you. I love the songg! I cant wait for the
LAST SONG to come outtt! another nic sparks fav showww! DEAR JOHN was
amazing too. Bush and I were crying like pussies watching it. Amazing. And
seriously i dont hate miley cyrus. I know the whole world does, except me. I
actually think she's cool. Im weird I know.

Anyways happy sat afternoon!
Dont forget to vote earthhh!

toodles.
x.o.x.o

My oh my!

2010-03-17T22:44:00.002+08:00

My stage 2 fyp assessment is like a week away exactly! But nothings
going to stop me from meeting Brian Molko.. Well something almost
did. That was kl, but i couldnt not see them after missing them in 2007.
I have no idea why i missed them in 2007? Oh i was probably working
then? no idea but screw the past, Im seeing them tmrrrrr! my placebo!!
Im excited. As mentioned im not a concert junkie and i dont attend
every concert but muse was a must and placebo is must too! Come on i
grew up listening to placebo, how can I finally not see them! Honestly
I wasnt excited for placebo at all, ive no idea why not. But right now Im
super sexcited for them! WOOOHOOOOOOOO! so you dont have to guess
what im doing now, im listening to placebo's new album so that i dont make
any mistakes with their lyrics though i actually know their songs by heart!
But i wish they would play a few songs from meds, that album was kick
ass really, really kick ass! I should stop blabbering about... RIGHT NOW.
I better get some work done so that i dont feel too guilty at all.

*Thanks for making me feel special chris :) and yes i do find boys that cook hot :)

you are orgasmic :)

Justice

2010-03-10T01:26:00.004+08:00

I am having my 2 weeks break right now where one week has already passed
with KL with the bestfriends. There's another few more days till term 4 the
final term begins, then im graduating! FINALLYY! But before that, fyp!! i have
not started shit for my stage 2 assessment yet! fag! I promise to do so tmr, i
hope? KL was amazing. I had so much fun, i think with these girls even the
slums of India would be awesome.Next stop in july, bali! then hong kong or
australia!! its a year of holiday guys, its worth while! Anyways, im terribly
lazy to blog, i might wanna shut this down. Im sure you can see im blogging
half past six method here. Fuck it ah! Anyways here are some pics from Kl!
more on fb. oh i know i spent my money on kl and i m not suppose to have
money for placebo but im going to loan money from mum just to watch
placebo i cant stand missing them i swear! I CANT! THEN ITS
STREOPHONICSSSS! this year damn cibz please!

Total Rush.

2010-02-06T23:17:00.003+08:00

Big night out 2010 Singapore is the best night of my life. Honestly
cant remember how long its been since ive had truly this much fun.
The other 2 bands saosin & rise against werent bad at all. BUT MUSE
WAS AMAZING! TOO AMAZINGG.. i was going crazy watching my
fav band! moreover the sexiest drummer's arms were around me :))
less words. more pics & vids! :D

Go teamm!

Rise against!

Moshpit, freaking 6 hours of it btw!

Muse stage.

Entrance!

Fuck me Bellamy!

Fav three!

:)) united states of eurasia!

greennn ray!

Fav man, Fav color!

Super cool jump during plug in baby!

Just like the resistance vid!

:))

All sweat

I look ughlyyy after the long day, its 4am dammit! but who cares. Its MY SEXYY
BEAST DOM HOWARDS! One drummer who smiles while drumming.

Saosin, Chris!

Saosin, Justin!

Uprising Big Night Out 2010 Singapore from ISFM on Vimeo.

Muse opening w/ uprising! total rush please!

My plug in babyy!

2010-02-02T02:01:00.002+08:00

MY PLUG IN BABIES ARE HERE! :) yeah you got that right! They have
arrived! If i knew they were arriving I would have spent my day at the airport.
Seriously. But oh wells nvm, Im a day away! one damn day away from seeing
my Matt! They cant back down on me like killers did! they cant, they wont.
I know i have been going insane this past couple of months, with the whole
concert fever. But you cant blame me, the bands i love take turn to come.
Guess who's next, Placebo! madness right? poor me. How poor can i possibly
get. Anyways, I just wanted to blog how happy I am that they're here. But i
guess i cant seem express them freely here. I feel mentally muted. My joyyy
is over the moon. Sorry for being such a drama queen like how ive always been.
I need to sleep now. I really do.

P.S And foreigners in our land, should learn how to shut their gap. Cause if you
arent happy, you're free to leave you know, A HOLES!

Dashed hopes

2010-01-23T00:11:00.005+08:00

So 4 days ago, "Somebody told me" was being played in my room from the
ipod dock while I was cleaning my wardrobe. Knowing that I was days away
from seeing Brandon Flowers I was terribly excited. SO excited that I was
jumping on my springy bed up and down pretending like I was at the concert.
Like as if nothing mattered, just seeing Brandon singing and moving so swiftly
would have made my day. But today at 3.04pm it became dashed hope. The
Killers cancelled their show in Singapore. Whole of Asia to be precise. I checked
every source I could to find out why, why Brandon would do it. But sistic the
most reliable source just said " the killers have cancelled the tour due to
unforseen reasons. " But damn it arent we just 2 fucking days away from the
concert? Ireally hope the reason given would be a really awesome one. Or else
it would just be racist cause the Australian tour is still on. Or at least reschedule
the concert please. Seeing muse and killers would have been a blessing. But
looks like it's just muse now.

I was in so much pain and disappointment that i was trying so hard not to cry. I
didnt get so hyped up to feel so fucked in the end. This feeling mixed with pms is
perfect i tell you. I tried so hard not to think about it. But when i was left alone
from school, while walking home. I just started tearing. I know this is so pussy.
But its really not a nice feeling. Try having one of your fav band canceling on
your part of the world. Looking at the nice sistic envelope makes me feel like
shit. Many people around me were so devastated. In school and out of it.
People love the killers. Cause they are THE KILLERS not from your britpop
region but from Las Vegas, America! Well i just had to type what i did, ill feel
better by tmr i hope. Right now what consoles me, knowing that muse isnt
far away. Please dont cancel on me/us too?

Come soon :((

Lemonade

2010-01-19T02:12:00.003+08:00

Good morning! I just thought typing a post before bed would be nice.
Well its been a week since school began. The first week itself emphasized
on the weeks left for graduation. Its about 21 weeks more to go. Im counting
down. I cant wait. Though Im scared to leave school, Im just growing up and
I need more in life than school. I have had my fair share of learning. Im not
saying Im not going to continue my education. Well here's the plan, work for
about a year. Save up as much money as possible, get out of here. Get a decent
degree in any communication courses. Match it up with my diploma and be
a copy writer, Come on you cant deny! Its an awesome plan! hah! I mean it
makes sense. It's not like my marine biologist dream which was possible but
not as practical as the current goal. Well If i get my degree i will be qualified to
be copy writer. I have the design background and the communicative as well.
But plans change right? So lets see what happens. But before all these happens,
im going to go away for awhile. For a long holiday. With my bestfriends
hopefully. even alone's fine. But we'll see how. Well i need to slow down now,
It's 2.24 am and there's still 21 weeks and there's still FYP! so right now, i need
to play my part and go to bed.

Toodles world!

Killers in 5 days :D

Party in the East Coast Bay

2010-01-02T21:46:00.004+08:00

First and foremost Happy 2010 everyone! I hope the countdown was
nice and everything's going good for everyone so far. Well mine was a
blast! I count down the dying moments of 2009 with the closest people
to my heart at sunset bay! It's a really nice place, along the beach and all.
So many fun shits happened. Not forgetting how we had to drag Xy all the
way and wait an hour just to get a damn cab. But it was all worth it.

As for resolutions, Ive nothing much really. I realise i get too ambitious and
it back fires damn badly. I just to finish up my Fyp and do well enough for it,
save up money as much as I can so that right after graduation, I can get
out of here for awhile. Like I want to be out at least for a month or longer.
So Im going to be less spendthrift. Yeah the plan is to just get out after
graduation, figure things out and seriously relax cause i deserve it. Not too
ambitious right? I think it's quite practical, somehow.

So school's starting in another 2 weeks, then my killers concert then my muse
big night out! I cant wait for it. Oh my favorite entertainer for 2009 would be
Taylor Swift. I love her to bits, I love her more since she broke up with Taylor
Lautner (jacob). HAH! Sorry im a die hard Cullen fan. My number one song
for 2009 would be Womenizer still! told you so. Okay fine actually i think
Lovestory would be it. I can never push the fairy tale princess side of me away.
Well overall, 2009 passed by quietly. I have a good feeling about 2010, a very
good one. So lets hope. cause i think im really going to grow up this year since
its my big 2-0! scaryyyy! very scaryyyy!

Full picture!

Zoomed in adica's pukeeeee!

heavy images on Fb :)

Would it fly?

2009-12-28T04:37:00.003+08:00

It's 4:37 am and I am still awake feeling terribly disturbed.
By what? I have no idea. Pms does this shit to you doesnt it?
I am back to the mode where i dont feel like getting out of
my house. Thats merely impossible. I feel zoinked.

But I dont know how I can stare at facebook, literally stare at
it and I was actually thinking of the most random thing ever.
I was actually early morning dreaming? I could see so many
balloons flying away. So colorful. So many yellow ones,
they are so beautiful. Oh how I adore yellow! Then suddenly
a little black boy stood there, trying to let a black balloon fly
up high just like the rest. But it doesnt seem to. The next
thing you know I am back from my wormhole. I like this
dream. I see potential. I hope when I go to bed now, this
dream continues. If novels can come up because of a dream,
mine has potential too.

And I cant stand it that It's mat's win for Singapore idol again.
Couldnt it just be a female for once? fuck this shit. Elias is right!
It's a government plot to give sg idol to malays all th 3 years so
that they wouldnt join the malaysian army in times of need! nice
one biatch! Time for me to head to bed before i start pmsing.

P.s Bush I miss you so damn much! I love how you are miles
away and you still fucking make me laugh so bad! LOVE YOU
biatch!

Be my Fireproof GOD

2009-12-14T16:18:00.002+08:00

I NEED A CHANGE! A MIRACLE! Fireproof made me
realise how much I actually need GOD in my life. How
I actually spat a thousand times at his face, rejected him
yet he never leaves me! Its like I can never kick him away.
But why is it so hard to pick up the bible, sit down and read.
But why is it so easy to finish up the the twilight saga in days?
Ahhh and addictions, I have got a couple of them that I have
to kick away. Addictions which are going to tear me down, if
I fail to act. And I am not very proud of the actions I have
done for the past one year. I dont have the guts to spill them
out, but I can assure you they are some bad things. I want to
change, I DO! I am going to turn 20 and it's ridiculous to
continue fooling around. I know I can do this, because I want
it!

God help me be a better person! Amen!

2009-12-11T01:32:00.002+08:00

"I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly
believed that I didnt want you anymore.
The most absurd, ridiculous concept-
as if there were any way that I could exsist
without needing you! " - Cullen; Edward

UNdiscovered

2009-11-29T23:19:00.002+08:00

Well I found someone who blocked me from finding them on facebook.
It amazes me how I am actually capable of doing it, causing fear. Maybe
cause I know your darkest mistake? your sin which I can spread? SO you
are afraid of having anything to do with me? I like the feeling of someone
fearing me. *evil grin. Alright, Alright Im not going to push this. Well I
just wanted to say mistakes are mistakes I dont quite adore rubbing them
again and again. What happened happened, It all happened for a reason. I
know thats fucking cliche, but well if i dont forgive you who's going to forgive
me? So why burden myself right? Im just very taken aback by th fact that
people actually bother to block me. Hah! Thats that. I am excited and dying
for 3 things to happen :

- Twilight marathon 3rd DEC
- Killer's concert 24th JAN
-Big Night out (MUSE) 3rd FEB

Im sexcited! and Christmas is 3 weeks away :))
Month to celebrate is here people!

HELP ME PLEASE?

2009-11-08T03:08:00.003+08:00

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=LdbZnB5gRvfza7hJQk714g_3d_3d

HEY GUYS,

I NEED HELP WITH MY FYP FIRST STAGE SURVEY. MY TARGET AUDIENCE
ARE HOWEVER TEENS AGED 13-16. BUT I NEED RESPONSES BY TMR, SO YOU COULD JUST REWIND BACK YOUR AGE AND HELP ME THIS. THANK YOUUU SO MUCH!

I APPRECIATE THIS YOU GUYS :)

LOVEEE ALL OF YOU WHO HELP ME.

Shingz

2009-10-22T23:19:00.002+08:00

I have neglected my blog space lately. Well blogspot you need to
blame twitter for that. I update so much, I dont even plan to mention
myself anymore. But none the less, some things can never be said in
twitter. Out of many people who chose advertising as their majoring
subject, I am one of the 6 lucky bastards from my class who got it.
I am all thankful that i got what i wanted. The word "advertising"
in almost all my profiles just came true. Satisfied. But upset for those
who didnt get their first choices. My sincere apologies. I suppose it
all happens for a reason right? Okay next 6 months will be all FYP
ads ads ads and more ads! Then im a diploma grad. Okay right now
I need to sleep. I know im typing bullshits now. nights world!

BOOMZ!

insist

2009-09-30T00:50:00.001+08:00

I bet you’re all alone, head down in your arms,
listening to sad songs, trying to keep warm.
I bet you’re outside, face up to the rain,
searching for the stars, finding only clouds of grey.
I bet you’re all alone; I’m wrong: I bet that’s me.

Pictures, nah they dont pain a thousand words, more like a gabizillion.

2009-09-28T00:47:00.002+08:00

the bestfriend :)

usual private party

thank you handsome stranger!

david monkman and daryl lee getting hyped at the back.

more on fb mierdas!

Will you help me by staying away?

2009-09-26T19:08:00.003+08:00

Partying with the girls and the boys was fawesome. Not a good
week to party, thanks to the whole F1 madness. And we spent 170
bucks on 13 tequilla shots. Fyi, the amount we paid for the shots can
actually help us open 2 bottles in paramount. But yeah, we had our
fun as usual. The girls stayed over my place and yeah bullshits done
as usual. So we were stranded along clarke quay till 7 am just cause
we couldnt get a cab. We saw lotsa fights that happened. I liked it
actually. Rebel and zirca is filled with assholes.Like the banghra (the
group of people who wear turban and dance for weddings and stuffs,
where some are blessed with amazing features) guy who cant stop
calling me now. ASSHOLE. Attica, the place for joy. oh ohhhh.. i used
think the guy who did my hair was reallyy cute. He's an Israeli, selling
point here. Terribly good looking. We met outside attica randomly.
Totally talkinggg and he's msging me now. I love the idea of having
an Israeli friend/fling... Okay more updates soon. Heavy images
should be uploaded in fb soon. hopefully not the one with me in towel.
okay thanks bye!

“You can't turn back the clock but you can wind it up again”

come back to me?

2009-09-14T03:33:00.002+08:00

Im suppose to be finishing up my Design Drawing. But I cant seem to
function well at all. Im so exhausted. I just wanna do everything im not
suppose to. But im typing in hope to let everything out, so that i can
resume doing my work. So i have officially shifted house. New room
filled with boxes mostly. But i still have air to do my work. It;s a bipolar
feeling being in this room right now. Im suppose to feel glad for the larger
space. Then suddenly i miss my compaq space. My little house. I miss it.
So the process of packing and unpacking has been a pain in the butt. So
while packing like 2 nights ago, I saw alot of cards and letters given to me.
Well it goes way backk to secondary school days. I just had to read them.
I felt younger. I felt like I had lesser responsibilties. I know im growing up.
And honestly deep down, I am actually quite afraid. Then I saw a valentine
day card I got for last year. I was so numb. Was not sure how i was feeling
that instance. But suddenly, I wanted to cry soo badly. But i couldnt. I wanted
to tear it and throw it away. But i couldnt. I shouldnt. Then i had to dump
everything into the box quickly before i could start questioning my feelings.
The pain was all fresh again. But im glad im okay now. Well i have made up
my mind on keep moving forward no matter what happens meanwhile. I
couldnt let a card tear me apart, no way! But im all good now. I actually
feel better. somehow I do. Cant wait for Rad to be back in a few days. Then
it's partyy. 25th of Sept, i cant wait!

Tooche everyone.

Deprived!

2009-09-06T00:25:00.002+08:00

Quote: "If drinking is interfering with your work, you're probably a heavy
drinker. If work is interfering with your drinking, you're probably an
alcoholic."

and right now, im an alcoholic. sigh.

We're all free now!

2009-08-30T20:31:00.002+08:00

It's already week 7! which means it's end of the term already!
Feels like i just finished internship. Works are all 70% done. Then
assessment. Then a week break. Then when school reopens, FYP
proposal and before you know it, im already out of Nafa. Geez.
It's as if time is on rocket launcher now. And in less than 2 weeks,
ill be moving to my new house. Im quite excited actually. But the packing
in between is going to be such a pain. Thank God for the break.
Oh and Friday was a blast! Feeza's birthday. My first Singapore flyer
experience and RISHI IS FREAKING BACK!! oh and paramount is
actually quite awesome please. Glad you are back ass! XD

Back to work. Cant to wait to hear alan's sexy voice!

Have a great Sunday night!

Flyer!

yeah,she was literally blindfolded.

Feeza's birthday at arab st!

Welcome home rishi!

paramount pinoys!

more & more paramounts to come!

more heavy images in fb!

Dont get me upset.

2009-08-21T09:48:00.002+08:00

The wait is finally over, new moon official trailer is here! XD
how about i almost cried tears of joy while watching it! and you
ARE SURELY GOING TO WATCH IT MORE THAN ONCE PLS!
Thanks fiza for showing it to me :)) Oh and im still team Edward,
though Jacob looks fawesome.

How about it actually hurts?

2009-08-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

I don't mean to drag it on
But I can't seem to let you go.

How about everything actually hurts?
& I m getting ready to let go before It gets
even harder.

Thanks for being a jerk, jon.

ARGH!

2009-08-15T00:27:00.001+08:00

WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHERS THINK ABOUT YOUUU?!
WHYYYYYY????!?!? WHAT'S WRONG WITH MANWHORE? WHAT'S WRONG?
EXPLAIN TO ME.. CAUSE IM NOT CONVINCED!!

sweet dreams

2009-08-07T00:33:00.003+08:00

How can Short Message Service be so amazing? It's short. But
It can still give me butterflies. I dont understand. But this is
something I dont need to and I dont want to. Distance does
make things better. Cause now i know how much we are yearning
for each other. I feel too good after the hangover i had from last
night! Mad night please. So much for drinking and drinking
only. hah! Alright proper updates soon. Works calling me.

Toodles everyone!

Cant wait for potluck on sunday at Xp's :)

J.K.D STOP DOING WHAT YOU DO, NOT!

Blessings

2009-08-02T22:43:00.002+08:00

Dear God, I feel so blessed. I feel like I have everything
I need right now. Jon has been nothing but a sweetheart!
I kind of miss mass msging and talking to him lately. Ns
is such a pain in the butt i swear! Field training and what
have you. But it'll be over soon and we can finally meet
for our Milkshake, meal, arcade and what have you!
not forgetting the scary bike ride. Hah! Dinner with the
loves yesterday was awesome. We ended up at coffee club
eating muddy mud pie instead of being at Supperclub. But
where ever we are, it's always awesome! The things we do..
beyond words please. Im very very very grateful to God
right now. And i know my best friend will be alright soon :)
right nad? I LOVE YOU BABYY! Alright off to get some
work done.

Toodles. Have a great day ahead!

2009-08-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

I kinda miss you hell alot :((( ugh!
at least ill be at supperclub tmr :) HAPPENING! XD

ps. im in a bipolar mood.

2009-07-26T22:17:00.001+08:00

The sand in my fingernails and shoes reminds me that yesterday did happen :)

This might be it.

2009-07-26T02:15:00.002+08:00

Finallyy I met Jonathan Kingsley at ecp with the best friends
sitting right behind me? He had no idea they were my friends
please. But i get where he's coming from. How can he possibly
meet all my friends, when it was our first time meeting right? But
slow and steady. I see potential in this. i honestly do! I can click
and talk bullshit like fuck. We were fucking honest with each
other. It was nice. Ice cream, playing sand and just talking.
moonlight. stars. sounds like a fairytale doesnt it? felt like one too.
It was more than perfect. Then the bike ride back home, I was
so scared of the cornerings i actually grabbed him so tight i think?
It was all ahhh brilliant. Then it ended off with a smile and a
long hug! and my 3 hours spent with him was like... MAGIC!

nights babies!

Period ohh period

2009-07-21T17:22:00.003+08:00

Today's the 2nd day of year 3. So far so good. The stress is
not here yet. Still in the phase of honeymoon period. Ive a
feeling it will start getting hectic from 3rd week onwards. Wait
whats new, hasnt it always been like this? hah! Lecturers are
all 100% alien to me. Digital Media's lecturer is super MUH
FUCKING HOT! then RCS is like a slack subject. Apparently
its suppose to built the character of a designer to be better.
I honestly thing they have this as a subject because we designers
have the tendency to have the whole "attitude" shit. Extreamly
bitchy i assure youu. It's actually one of th only way to survive
in the art world. But yeah this sub actually helps somehow.
The DD, lecturer is super stern. I guess it helps. Then she
spoke about choosing your major and how we are not very far
away from that. She tensed me, and me fiza gypsy and mui played
punk in class as usual. We are honestly bitchy, even we cant
stand ourselves. HAH! So far eveythings good. And I miss nad :(
alot. And i know she is so not feeling well. Get well soon babe.
tiqa,vek,ryan,bush and daryl playing arcade was kinda cute! And
vivek is so freaky cause he knows every guy im ever involved with!
HOW FREAKY! but yes i owe him for being a huge help :) and i just
realised im blabbering. I am sure 3/4 of no idea about what the
fuck im typing.

Okay thanks bye!

1) ad
2)graphic design
-publication
-packaging
-illustration

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO CHOOSE AS MY MAJOR! UGH!

Skin the color of cinnamon
His eyes light up
And I'm filled within
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what I started I'm giving in
He brings life to my fantasies
Sparks a passion inside of me
Find the words and I cannot speak
In the silence, his heartbeat is music to me

Mama used to warn me not to rush love with another
Said I'm not trying to lecture
I just care about my daughter
Ay mama, you seem to forget
I never would never let
A man control my emotions
When he smiles
I feel like a little child

Cause Im your lady and you're my man

2009-07-19T20:51:00.002+08:00

We're heading for something
Somewhere I've never been
Sometimes I am frightened
But I'm ready to learn

Of the power of love..

School officially begins tomorrow and
so does my final year in Nanyang Academy Of Fine Arts!
Feeling excited and scared at the same time.
Tell me who isnt? Growing up is such a
BITCH! But at least my timetable isnt!
But im looking forward to coming saturday!
Ryan's and Vivek's Birthday Celebration! Weehoohee! :)
And harry potter half blood prince was quite alright.
I mean ive watched all of it in the Cinema so i surely
wouldnt watch it online please! And yes i did cry
when dumbledore died. So did my sister!
We are such babies please!

Have a great Monday Blues!

keeping you company

2009-07-17T02:27:00.002+08:00

Cant sleep knowing you are awake :) cant stop but spent
all the $0.05 cents just to communicate with you. But
here are the pics from Xp's mini bday celebration. <3 <3

beer and burger, amazing combo pls!

Happy bday baby! Hope you enjoyed it!

bestfriend :)

<3 you daryl :)

trying to do the odd/even numbers cheena shit

succeeded. no eyes ba!

Loved.

2009-07-16T00:05:00.003+08:00

All my best friends are busy with studying, projects and submissions
drawing near. Everyone's busy and lifeless. And im having my one
week break before im back to being busy. And when i get busy,
sometimes, i break down. Dont we all? So i guess i know how my
loves are feeling right now. But then again we need to grow up
right babies? Get a great job, be somewhere and hey we need
to buy our dream house remember? where we are not allowed
to bring different guys everyday! thinking about it makes me smile.
Dreams we had since we were like 14? And we are still holding on.
though we did have minor problems in between. I love you girls.
Feeling very contented now. Study and work hard you girls.
And before you know it. we are back partying and staying in
one hotel room :)

sending my love to sydney, opera estate,
chai chee, bedok north and kew terrace :)

Yes i know im suppose to blog about
Mj right gypsy? i'll do it tmr please.
totally not in the mood for that!

<3 heart you!

I cant believe my eyes!

2009-07-15T01:00:00.002+08:00

Are you dead bored? Need some entertainment! Get
a bucket of popcorn right away and visit this link without
hesitating! oh whats good? they love spice girls.

M18 i swear! Puki bola dok!

CLICK IT!

Did you hear about the homosexual letter?
Only came in male boxes.

Destiny

2009-07-13T17:52:00.002+08:00

I am extremely sure destiny exsist. I have believed in that
since i was a child. At least thats what my dad taught me.
And it will bring love to me or me to the love. But now i
know destiny cant do it alone. I, We need to make the move.
Build the bridge to the love. Make the move instead of waiting.
Thats the time, destiny will be our best friend and show us the
love.

Thank you. sincerely.

Im listening.

2009-07-12T15:07:00.003+08:00

I honestly do not care to what others have to say about
how i meet a person and how im getting to know him. I
honestly do not. And i dont care about how many times
it might look like ive been here. Well yes im a sucker for
sweet words. no disagreement on that. But how i feel about
someone, no one has the right to question that. Now thats
said, i feel better. How can you not like someone who's :

1) shy to ask for your number

2) feels guilty about over sleeping for church
(totally know how that feels)

I know its something real minor, but he's sooo adorable.
so cute when he says all this! love the innocence. moreover
its coming from a 23 year old. geez. it's too cute! I cant stop
smiling.

Like i said. i've successfully formed into a CRAZIER person!

AND INTERNSHIP IS OVER BABYYY!
WOOHOO! PARTAYYYYY TIME! XD

I swear you make crazier!!

2009-07-09T11:43:00.002+08:00

Nothing can make my eyes smile so bright besides talking to you
online and listening to crazier. I can feel the butterfly and it
feels good i swear :) talking about love relationships.. age gap.
Ahhhhh you make me crazier!

ill blog about Mj and the memorial soon XD

well done with the clear cut, direct in your face
speech paris jackson!

Have a great day!

You lift my feet off the ground

2009-07-02T10:07:00.002+08:00

It thurs!!! THURSDAYY! tmr is Xp's birthdayy! YAY!
finally you are 19 Xp! at least you are not bad as bush.
And tmr marks one week till the end of internship. Ive
had real fun working here. Learned quite abit. But i
miss school. I wanna go back to school I am really not
ready to leave school just yet. I am going to miss being
a student. 3 more week and im back to school! And yes
drinking at Xp's working place tmr, to celebrate her birthday.
Quite excited for it. Cause it's been a month since i saw her.
Seriously miss her! Anyhoos i have pictures to edit!

And FYI,
Sorry for torturing bush particularly with the the whole
MJ news. HAHA! seriously dont blame me, i have a
colleague at work who makes sure im watching all the
MJ videos and at home my sister is MJ'ing all the way.
So im flooded with it. And im not listening to him just
cause he's dead. But my colleague and sister just reminded
me of MJ, i mean i grew up listening to it. Like when i was
younger, my uncles and everyone would make kev and i
wear the MJ (pink panther) hat and dance like small idiots.
So it's a part of me i just forgot until people around me
MADE me listen. But yes, a very respectable man left. Never
really believed all the tabloids about him. still dont. So he
deserves to rest in peace whereever he is.

1958-2009

You set the bar even you cant beat, thriller still has the
highest number of records ever sold till this date. You
raised the bar, You fought a good fight. And it's time to
chill now, IN A WAY BETTER PLACE. you will always
and always be the king of pop as Elizabeth Taylor has mentioned.

2009-06-29T10:53:00.002+08:00

The week has been good! Work was great last week! As
you can see i am dead bored at work. explains why im blogging.
Friday was transformers with mui, iggy and gypsy. Movie was
great. Megan Fox is soooooo ___! Then Saturday i caught up
with my beloved sleep. till 10.30 at least. Then went to hunt for
lights then ikea till night with the family. Moving house is
soooo troublesome. you have to go and see lights, sinks, toilet
bowls! ugh! but i like the choosing tiles part. officially moving
in 3 weeks or so. Then sunday was church in the morning,
ikea again just for while though. Then off to meet the girls
for mas ayu, icc and super 100% sit and chill. I had to meet
them felt too long since we met pls. It was all good. But the place
we were sitting down. not cool. or at least errrrr. the
park connector near st pats! hahaha! and i swear when we
sat there for so long, we realised everyone lives in ocean park!
Hah! It was all good. So this group of banglas got yelled at
by me. So i was waiting for bus at ikea right to go and meet the
girls at bedok.Waited so long and i couldnt even get in cause the
sluts didnt want to move to the centre of the bus. Sucha pity cause
there were so many people at ikea waiting just to get on the bus
and some had kids with them. some had things to carry and all.
I got so mad, i ran to courts since courts is th last stop. I yelled so
loudly saying "MOVE BACK PLEASE!" wahh after that, another
10 poeple could get in th bus sia! nabei bangla! Alright im off to
work! xing and bush are doing a great job by fighting online.
totally entertaining me! hah!

FYI,
(-_-) is for Manjens
(o_o) is for Minahs
(O_O) is for Minatchis

right bush?

This is what Xing has to say, i bursted out giggling!

Kid - The games you play. says: (10:33:54 AM)
hahaha
Kid - The games you play. says: (10:33:56 AM)
u shud know
Kid - The games you play. says: (10:34:01 AM)
i married u wifout dating u
Kid - The games you play. says: (10:34:06 AM)
i mean we did slp tgt once
Kid - The games you play. says: (10:34:10 AM)
but tts not a date :P
(yn) ShaL Van Der Woodsen says: (10:35:39 AM)
hahahahahahahah! IM TRYING DAMN HARD NOT TO LAUGH SIA
(yn) ShaL Van Der Woodsen says: (10:35:42 AM)
hahahahahaha

He makes it sound like we really did sleep together as in had sex! biatch!
hahahahahah! I miss you lah Xing hua!!! Cant wait for you to be back!

BANG BANG!

2009-06-23T10:21:00.003+08:00

GOOD FUCKING MORNING SINGAPOREEEE! okay i feel fresh! real
fresh. Well I have been blady busy doing layouts and more layouts for
Temasek Club July/Aug issue. I started on a great foot i swear! Last
week Tue, my senior graphic designer gave me the chance to work on
on my first article. BOTH MY STUDIO MANAGER AND HIM LIKED
IT!!!!!! that was one heck of motivation for me. The satisfaction is
priceless. So ive been working on most of the pages since then. I feel
responsible. I feel like im really working. Which i am but you know
i dont quite feel like an intern. like sit down observe and all. I actually
do work. Everyone;s real nice to me here. Well pork is the fav dish of
the office. I mean im the only minority here. HAH! Everythings great!
But i get tired real easily. I wake up at 7; reach work at 9, reach home at 7.30
if i am going home straight. then i get sleepy by like 12? it's like a routine
now. But yes i feel useful and occupied. No time for useless thoughts.
But taking bus 10 every morning is such a pleasure. love the bus.
Went through alot in. It was my ride to and back when i was working
in Lonsdale then. And yeah passing my fav bayshore everyday. I like it.
I will surely buy a house there IN BAYSHORE when im in the ad industry.
It's an ode to myself. Anyhoos i saw how my studio manager works,
SHE IS MUH FUCKING FAST! i mean my jaw dropped. literally.
How can you be that fast? Then she told me, i have been in this line
for 15 years now. Trust me when you reach up to my level of experience
you will be as good or better. I love looking up to them in design wise.
I feel guided. Do i sound too contented? YES i am. i know this doesnt
sound like me. But im glad i turned 4 media down. Cause im starting
to love graphic now. Good luck to me choosing my major. Can someone
tell me why Gelare has closed down? i pass it everyday in the bus
and i have no idea why its closed. Alright more coldplay and duran duran
now while waiting for pending articles.

Tooche!
have a great day!

Just dance, gonna be okay!

2009-06-20T00:00:00.002+08:00

I badly want to go for
Lady Gaga's concert in August!

Im your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi,
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that i'll be your
Papa-paparazzi

Promise i'll be kind,
But i won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Oh boy dearie!

2009-06-16T15:13:00.002+08:00

I have never felt this alone in such a long time. I can
have a billion people staring down at me and im sure
i will still feel alone. Like quiet inside. I wont say i
hate the feeling, i kind of adore it. It's my secret
hiding place. Where it's just me and God. That would
feel great. I think what made it worse was that,
everyone left together. Rad went back to aussie,
tiqa went to bali but the bestfriend will be back
tonight *smiles and elias went into ns! feels weird
not talking to him online. He's always being
such a fool online and all. I miss him. But he msged
in the morning saying he is fine, which makes
me feel good. He's okay. That matters. And nad,
i really dont know what's going on there. But you
know that I am always here right? literally. Sort
out your life and when you need someone, i'll
be there i promise. Xp you need to stop going missing
i have not seen you for one whole month now.

So i realise and i know, that I have been slutty. A sundal.
Im not saying thats right. neither am i saying its wrong.
But i have my limits. I dont sleep around. I dont even
find myself waking up naked in someone else's bed. I
havnt even had sex yet. Then why am i such a hopeless
slut? Can you tell me why? I know i do my shits. But
i know my limits, if you get what i mean. You know
you have no rights talking about how slutty i am and
all right. Cause you know deep down, im way purer
than you. I am talking about all the sex and drugs you
have had in your life. YOU REALLY HAVE NO
RIGHTS! (sorry that was particularly to someone
who said im a hopeless slut!)

I miss having someone to hold me when i cry, just falling
into the person's arms without having to explain anything.
Just lie on you and look at stars away, I really hope God
sents me the one soon. Cause i know, the next r/s is
not going to be a temp one. I want it to last. I want to
know my husband at least 6-7 years before we get married.
Which means i need to find my husband to be soon?
But im not going to plan this anymore, let it work the
way it's suppose to, right GOD?

UGH!

2009-06-15T09:36:00.002+08:00

Rad left yesterday, it's depressing as usual but she will be back
in a few months. Looking forward to that. Simpang with the
girls. Talking about all the shits we did in secondary school.
Awesome days those were. And im planning to ciao work on
fri so that i can go to JB with th girls and eat my A&W which
I have been craving for sooo long now. Everything was going
great until i had to see him neart afghan! ARGH! seriously
it's like this feeling, if i dont see him i dont remember him
but once i see him im going to not stop thinking about him.
And what makes it worse, HE HAD TO FUCKING SMILE!
which isss sooooo breath taking. I hate this feeling i swear!
It's like i know you want me, you know i want cha (i know
thats the pitbull song) but we cant have each other! This
is torture! I HATE THIS FEELING! ughhh! You know that if
im super free to blog and all, it's because im in th office right,
but here's the good news. there's new project and ive
got work to do later on! SO YAY!

Toodles!

P.S i miss you atiqah azman come back soon. It was so
weird without you yesterday and lim xiao ping MEET
US SOON! YOU HAVE BEEN MISSING TOO LONG NOW!
:(

Lone ranger.

2009-06-12T13:55:00.002+08:00

I had astons alone. BECAUSE my best friends dont want to
meet me and my colleagues wanted to eat "bah ku teh"
for lunch, which i was so not on for. So i went to eat astons on
my own. Felt so matured. Felt like an adult. Felt like i was
independent. It was all just nice feelings. But at first i felt
like shitxzx so i called nad and she was like it's okay and all.
Seriously lunch alone wasnt that bad at all. Looking at people
was amazing. The table next to me was occupied by 3 chinese
boys. ONE OF THEM WAS SSOOOO CHARMING! like he
didnt have the typical features. He looked really good.
like nice nose and all. And his hair........ WHAO! mesmerised.
really. so i was chewing on my steak and like catching glimpses
of him. Dont worry i bet i didnt look sick like a big bad wolf!
I think i look pretty in my dress today (: Anyhoos,
yes. One of the boys was irritating though. ugh! But yes,
charming boy smiled at me, wondering why i was alone
i bet. If only he was alone . . . . . then i was about to pay
off my bill and make a move then a father and son came and
sat on the other side of me. The son WAS SOOO CUTE TOO!
really cute. for this we had chemistry like short ones, but too
bad his dad was near him. And im guessing this boy is like
1 or 2 yrs younger than me. But oh wells, who cares.
That was lunch. now im back in the office. Dying. Waiting
for some work to do. Internship is sooooo (_______) fill it
yourself.

Here's some pics of tuesday and wednesday.

Tuesday!

Ice Cream Chef

Gelare

Wednesday!

Rad's place

LET LADIES NIGHT BEGIN BABYYY!

I SWEAR I HAVE NO IDEA WHO THIS IS!
BUT I BET I WAS BEING A SUNDAL WITH HIM! :D

new friend

Singapore female sundals with French male sundals!

Thank you for the ride back, sorry for the fine Redzza! :)

Wednesday nights :)

2009-06-11T09:41:00.003+08:00

Reporting from office right, feeling all bloodless and
zoinked out. Thanks to the ladies night club hopping
yesterday! IT WAS ONE OF THE BEST NIGHTS
EVER :) it was just the girls. For once we didnt have
to worry about getting the guys in, esp into attica!
attica,rebel and arena were all quite welcoming.
The only problem was that, we were kind of late,
so only arena was having free flow all night. Then
we saw slumberparty (shaun)! though he sucks,
it was really nice seeing him. I miss the boys pls.
Like i miss clubbing as a whole. But i had fun.
And yes whats new. we. had. our. sundal. moments.

Kid - I need sentosa! I'm turning into a white fairy! says:
no not a sundal like u HAAHA

Even my husband thinks im a sundal. haish! sorry
hubby! i'll TRY to be better okays? geez. but seriously,
i wish i had your babies for real. hah! okay i have another
8 hours more! help me get through this! do your part,
by coming online and talk to me dammit! Xing hua, Vivek
and Elias are doing a great job. And yes im glad rad leaves
so near my office! Thanks for letting me stay over love! (:
it was fun and worth me dying at work!

Toodles!

Better go and get your armor!

2009-06-09T23:46:00.003+08:00

IT'S ON REPEAT MODE! :) helps me get through my whole 8 hours of work!
OKAYYY I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEE IT! and rad's back ((: had ice cream chef and
gelare with the girls, ryan and elias. butterfactory tmr (: oh after work. ugh!

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no, these times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now
I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield?
Why does love always feel like..

Best of both worlds!

2009-06-07T17:04:00.003+08:00

The results are out! And im quite satisfied with my grades and gpa.
Best results so far ever since year 1? All the staying up till dawn
infront of my lappy has paid off quite well! (*pat my own back)
Okay im off to do the CGH excercise-figure illustrations. Oh thats
the new project cicada has been given. Have a great weekend!

Tooche.

Elias (:

boyyss!

girlies!

I want youu!

2009-06-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was my first day at work! well it was good
i suppose. Colleagues are nice people. Boss is VERY nice.
Oh and he has a sexy voice as well which is a huge turn
on. Well there's always a bitch, so there's this real suck
up to the boss kinda biatch! After lunching with the
colleagues, came to realise that apparently no actually
really like her. Dont plan to get involved with the whole
office politics shit. hah! after work met the babies for
BAR AND PARTY! i'll talk about that and upload
the pics of them soon! and yes, MY BOY ELIAS MADE
IT THROUGH SINGAPORE IDOL!!! YAY! im
proud of you son! and charlene, dont worry about it,
Stage fright happens okays? I love you both and
I am proud of the both of you!

p.s. So happy birthday RISHI and JEAN!
MISS YOU RISHI, PARTY WHEN YOU GET BACKK!

XD

2009-06-03T23:54:00.002+08:00

Finally got hired by Cicada designs! Starting work on fridayy!
and guess where the office is?!!? IT'S AT EAST COAST
ROAD BABYYY! WOOHOO! NEAR PARKWAY, NEAR SIGLAP!
NEAR EVERYWHERE MY FRIENDS HANG OUT AT! YAY!
I can meet one friend for each day's lunch time! Internship
is on graphic design. and thats not too bad! and yes. Party
this fri! i cant waittt! i need to see all the people ive not seen
in such a long time. And yes i love you girlfriends, cause
we are funny like that! Okayy off to watch Friends!

Toodles.

FINALLYYYYYY!

2009-06-02T23:53:00.002+08:00

F I N A L L Y! IT'S OUTT! IT'S FUCKING OUT!
I CANNOT STOP WATCHING IT. WATCHING JACOB
LOOK SO GOOD! AND IT'S AMAZING WHEN THE BOOK
COMES TO LIFE! NICE NICE NICE! I CANT WAT!

OKAYTHXBYE! (:

Screwed up familyy

2009-06-01T11:38:00.002+08:00

You know how in facebook you can state who's your mum,
dad and yadda yadda? So helmi is my father, bush is my
mother, atiqah and nad are my sisters, An is my brother,
Elias and gypsy are my kids and the best part of all,
XING HUA IS MY HUSBAND! :) ive got a hot husband!
this is when you say niccccccccccceeeeee like pitbull.
Okay now here comes the complicating part, my son
wants to have an affair with his grandpa, my mother
wants to steal my husband. And my sister is actually
my mother's mother. That makes my mother and my
sister cousins. Well bottom lines is that we have sundal
genes! We one big konek family! And yes, my son's
going off to ns soon, and we are going to partayyyyy
as a whole group on the 5th. Double o to drink,
attica to partayyyy! yay yay yay! but before that
I need to get HIREDDDDDDDDD by this week!

Okay happy monday and good
luck with your papers babies!

Tooche.

XD

2009-05-29T16:23:00.003+08:00

I partied like a rockstar with my bestfriend! Just me and nad!
it's really nice clubbing, just the 2 of us. Had fun babe! loads
of it! found a potential chinese boyfriend. and im not saying
anything more! im a happy child. and yes. double o is worth
drinking. super meat market please. attica is always, always
our comfort zone lahh! :D i likeeeeeeeeee. And yes girls, 5th
June we shall party like divas!

you know you love me
x.o.x.o

What the hell is going on.

2009-05-27T11:14:00.001+08:00

http://weeklyworldnews.com/celebs/4783/megan-fox-is-a-man/

IF THIS IS TRUE, IM SPEECHLESS!

Can i sing?

2009-05-24T02:17:00.003+08:00

I know i blogged just an hour ago! but this has to be published!
Such things happen at this time when the bestfriend is bored!
Thank you making me laugh!

A* says:
i wanna be
A* says:
the next
A* says:
singapore idol
A* says:
tell me honestly shal
A* says:
can i sing?
A* says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAA
A* says:
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA
ShaL Van Der Woodsen says:
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAAHAHAHAHAH
ShaL Van Der Woodsen says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
A* says:
HAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA
ShaL Van Der Woodsen says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAA
A* says:
IM LAUGHING
ShaL Van Der Woodsen says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAHAHAHAHHAAH
A* says:
HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
ShaL Van Der Woodsen says:
ME TOOO!
A* says:
SLUT SHUT UP
ShaL Van Der Woodsen says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
A* says:
ssssssshhhhhhhhhhhh

A "SURPRISE!" event for the one and only T.I!

2009-05-24T01:33:00.002+08:00

Evolution of Elias. "T.I"

Elias will be going in to ns like soon, so we are planning a "surprise"
for him which he already knows about and even asks for it constantly!
So he claims he will come and pretend like he's surprised! ASS!
And yes we actually have too many reasons we want to party.
We've not partied as a whole in such a long time. and this time
we have more people coming. getting to know each other and all.
around lets say 30 people? nice nice nice. double o will be nicely
conquered on the 5th June! I know this is random but, I THINK
ADAM LAMBERT SOUNDS SOOOO GOOD SINGING MAD WORLD!
FELL IN LOVE PLS! JUST FOR THAT SONG GYPSY! DONT GRIN!
ARGH!

Theme Song for the party:
Romeo take me to dblO!
I'll be the bitch and you'll be the asshole!
Mat Minah story baby just say YES!

But Im already dying..

2009-05-23T11:45:00.002+08:00

Official new moon poster is released! Im waiting for the trailer to be
out then the movie on 20th Nov 2009 ((((((((((((((((((((: Jacob looks
rather buff doesnt he? Or wells, he is a werewolf in new moon!

Conway babyy!

2009-05-22T00:46:00.002+08:00

My Conway Boy WON! I mean both adam and kris were brilliant.
Seriously. There's not much pain on who wins or not cause both
of them are going to be equally successful. The cliche outcome of
American Idol. But then again, KRIS WON!!!! WOOOHOOOOO!
if it doesnt matter who win, then why even have the show right?
This is an irony! hah! BUT YES KRIS ALLEN, THE DECENT,
CLEAN, BRILLIANT, COUNTRY, CONWAY BOY WON!
AMERICAN IDOL 2009! I feel satisfied. I was literally crying
and jumpping when he won at 8.30 in the morning. And ive
always supported you kris! always have! have a great future
ahead and i will surely buy your latest album! and not bad adam!
Gypsy is your number one fan! HAH! IN YOUR MUH FUCKING
FACE! okay enough with the whole AI shits.

Tooche!

LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, KRIS ALLEN! WOOHOOO!!!!

ps; i still think kris sang no boundaries brilliantly!

Fiza oh Fiza!

2009-05-19T23:51:00.003+08:00

So now NURRAFIZA RAFI finally realised the worth of twilight
and Edward Cullen. Hah! I am super happy that you
enjoyed twilight and yes you should proceed to new moon, it
gets more interesting. Guarantee you! Now you know you
can trust me ahhh! ass! I got so excited after i read your
post please. And yes Edward Cullen is inevitable.
you will have to fall in love with him. Next to fall in love
with him would be Sharmila Roseli as assured. This is
one mother fucking satisfaction i swear! And yes internship
wise, gajah design wants to see my work through mail
and then interview for their advertising and pr role. And
yes literally "Gajah". But it's situated at River Valley,
Clare Quay easier to party after work please. Hah!
Getting closer to getting hired. thats great news!

Your full twilight movie link fiza, fast and clear! ENJOY ;)
: http://www.zshare.net/video/596900899c53e847/

Sundal Song

2009-05-19T01:48:00.002+08:00

So my bestfriends tell me that this is my official sundal song..
And I happen to think so too. (mwah mwah)

Dont go I know you wanna touch me
Here there and everywhere... And how
fucking sundal is that? sheesh.

Standing there.

2009-05-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

Have I told you I need an internship soon? LIKE SOON PLEASE!
THANK YOU GOD! anyhoos. everything else is calm and smooth.
Looking forward to 3 things right now.

: 1) Helipad/Butter cookies night on 20th May (:
2) 5th June Clubbing as a Whole again
3) Im going to be metal bitch for a metal gig,
just to see a metal boy on 6th June XD

So far thats it.
Updates soon!

Toodles,

We sing, We dance...

2009-05-16T00:57:00.002+08:00

So we sang, we danced and I lost my mother's atm card.
And all she said " whats new?" and gave the hopeless
look! ARGH! i hate it when she does that! but oh wells.
At least i didnt lose all the money inside did i? But yes
I am sorry. Very sorry. But i still had a brilliant night
with the girls. Karaoke-ing was awesome! and i completely
lost my voice. Arent you happier sore throat voice virus?
But yes, i think we have potential girls! AND YES
CONGRATS TO MY BESTEST FRIEND FOR PASSING
HER TP! YAY BABE! OUR TPE DREAM SOON?! ((:
SO PROUD OF YOU LOVE, AND DO YOUR BEST FOR
YOUR TP TMR SOYAH! and yes im still scared to go
and sign up for a retest again. BUT I SHOULD. cause
i can drive but i cant! faggots! Okay enough of driving
madness. I have nothing interesting for internship.
So i realised I am out most of the time, so im planning to
stay home tmr to bake cake with my favorite chocolate
frosting. That would make me a happier person.
Cake anyone?

Hard candy

2009-05-14T12:48:00.002+08:00

"Burst in the door and take me away,
no more mistakes cause in your eyes
I would like to stay. "

LA LA LA OOOOO!

2009-05-13T00:30:00.003+08:00

My nose hurts, i swear i hit some wall! I can totally
feel a bump coming up. So my best friends are sluts.
Cause they arent online when i need to ask them the
most important shits. BITCHES! So i have sent out my
resume and coverletter to as many places as possible.
Now all i need to do, the most annoying thing, WAIT!
Hopefully i get hired soon. (*crosses finger). Then
there's relax mode, doing nothing, watching my series.
Which makes life worthwhile. So i miss atiqah azman,
SHE'S MISSING I SWEAR! annoying bitch. I mean at least
bush calls me in between classes and breaks and what nots.
Hopefully i see both the sluts tmr. Then i saw nad today.
So she says " we'll hang out more from thurs okays "
yea sure. So we'll see. HAH! Xp, lets not shower, go macs
or somewhere soon? Am i all whiny? it's the period.
Dont mind me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 29TH TO MY SUNDAL SISTER!
I LOVE YOU THOUGH YOU ANNOY THE SHIT OUT OF ME.
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY SUNDAL, OLDER, ROLEMODEL,
NO MATTER WHAT. (:

Toodles!

*BJ, YOU ARE SOOOO MESMERISING. YOU TALK LIKE A CUTE BOY
I SWEAR! shits. i dont mind pretending to be a metal head,
just to watch you. THANK AH GYPSY. im a freak just like you.
FUCK!

Update Updates!

2009-05-11T12:49:00.004+08:00

Ahhhh so I finally get to blog, since assessments and presentation
are over for me. But i still have to get send out my resumes and get
an internship soon. I think i should be able to get a internship by
this week. Then 6 weeks of working. Then after that back to school in
July for the FINAL YEAR. Time seriously flies please. Everything changes.
Yes it really does. Well as much as I wish just a few things would remain.
Okay cut the bull. I shall update you with what went on last week. Mon-wed
was nothing much cause of assessment and presentation.

Wed night

Wednesday at yello jello then clubbed hopped to arena then to rebel
which i thought was super cock. Rebel is the chinese version or double o.
And yes, i had fun with my mates loads of them. Shits happened. and
i think we're all closer now (: LETS DO IT AGAIN BITCHESSS!

Thurs

Xing hua left to new zealand :( and yes I am going miss him. Actually the
thought of not having him around for party, clubbing or random outings already
makes me miss him. Come back soon okays? Come back on dec, i'll miss you for
the shits we do. Trying to look like assholes. hah! He was forever like
my personal bodyguard and forever falling asleep anywhere, literally.
Waiting for us to make sundal choices, always getting grinded for us.
Shit i'll miss youu. Cause no one brings the party like you. And thank
you for staying when everyone left. Forever the brotherly figure around.
I miss you, flower! See youu soon.

Fri

The casual friday night dinner with the girls at pasir ris this time.
WHO CAN EVER REPLACE YOU SUNDALS? NEVER.

Then sat was family occasion in the morn then sheesha and drinking with
atiqah atique and elias. Sunday was mummy's day. So spent with God and
Family. I surely updated you.

TOOCHE WORLD!

DEMAND DEMAND!

2009-05-08T16:13:00.001+08:00

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H.A.P.P.Y

2009-05-04T10:29:00.002+08:00

I am the happiest bitch you can ever find today! So i woke up
at like 8.30 when i slept at 3 AND I AM NOT TIRED AT ALL
PLEASE!!!!!!! well cause im just hours away from submission
and i need this to be over! and it will be soon! then it's
PARTAYYY! oh then starts the stress to look for internship.
Thank you girls for the stress relieve night yesterday!
sounds wrong please. Oh what doesnt right? im going to
spend more time with the girls please! CAUSE I SWEAR
I MISS THEM ALOTTT! like literallyy. okay reminder,
hours away!

Im off to touch up my workbook,then off to leave the load down.

toodles!

*gypsy having just a ear, still makes me laugh! nice bila!

Hardest time.

2009-05-02T02:06:00.000+08:00

It's all fucked. But I am trying.

Grateful!

2009-04-26T18:46:00.003+08:00

I feel contented with everything in my life right now.
Very contented. Thank you dear Lord for all the blessings.
One more week for the stress to end. Then internship. Then
year 3 begins. Looking forward to all the partying thats coming
up. So the aim is to get everything printed by this thurs.

Thurs- Beerfest
Sat- Celebrate sean's arrival at some club
Wed- Yello jello with the mates. and you'll
just never know what else.

SO i just bought a pink phone which looks so sundal,
just like me.. I LIKE!

tooche.

it's all fucked.

2009-04-21T22:02:00.002+08:00

So i failed my tp. I mounted the kerb. But good thing is that
I got 10 points. And when i went to starhub to get my phone,
they dont have it in stalk? Super annoying. Im about to have
a bitch fit. I have tonnes of work to do. Shall blog more, when
time permits.

Goodnight!

hyper!

2009-04-20T00:19:00.002+08:00

ITS MY FUCKING TP TMR! HOPEFULLY I PASS!
OR ELSE IM JUST GOING TO FLOOD MYSELF WITH
ICC! WITH MY BF OF COURSE! AARGH AND THANK YOU
GYPSEY FOR GETTING ME HIGH ON DOUBLE CHOCO!
IM SOOO HYPER I JUST WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE!

WOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOO!
i think im nervous. thats why.

Kebab

2009-04-18T22:47:00.002+08:00

It was my chance to whine down from work yesterday. And i most
certainly did whine down. So it was shesha at arab street with the clan.
Then it was clubbing at arena. Though we were queing up for rebel. But
they were all out of tables, since we wanted to open bottles. But anywhere
with the girls around is a blast. And yes, xing hua and azhar thank you for
being there. Back to work, then in 2 more weeks its party again babyy!
And why do i always do the silliest things when im dead and nearly gone?

But here's the highlight, There was this skater looking ang moh boy sitting
at the bridge with his friends, eating some kebab... then....
Skater boy: Hey there, looking good ( he said something more i swear i cant remeber!)
Shal: hey hi there! What are you having?
Skater boy: Kebab?
Shal: Can i have some?
Skater boy: OF course you can!!
Shal: Come down to arena?
Skater boy: Come down to attica?
Shal: We'll see how, bye!
Skater boy: BYE (:

Okay im 100% sundal, i ate a boy's kebab. WTF!
I should have just gone to attica to see him, after all it was
our comfort club which invites us like all the time! But i
was so high for that. Oh wells i had fun. and everytime
i club, i get more more SUNDALicious!

Tooche.

*If you are white, have blonde long hair, tied up into a pony
tail and if i ate your kebeb yest, call me?

Pictures pictures!

2009-04-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

Saturday night, BBQ at atiqah's.

puppies going for 1 for $1

please grab us?!?!

We were just suppose to go up there and do random poses...

but some ass suggested, we should make out.. -.-

more on fb! (:

It's all for love

2009-04-12T01:02:00.002+08:00

Everythings been going good. Including Good Friday.
Today bbq at atiqah's place. Thank you babe and your
family for having us over. Had fun please! Tomorrow
will be church then to changi hotel to take pics and do
some important protecting work for my babies! heh!
and guess what RADHIA JAMAL KAZURA IS BACK
IN SPORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i havnt seen her. ass!

Alright have a great Sat night!

x.o.x.o

It's 9th April Thats why!

2009-04-09T00:29:00.003+08:00

Okay in less than 11 hours, the best shop of the year, from my
lover's paradise Japan is opening at Tampines 1. I am super
excited for this. I seriously am. All the discounts. My gosh.
A brand I used to shop for online, is about 600m away from
my home now. Life's good, i assure you. Thank you Japan
for EVERYTHING! thank you for blessing me with uniqlo!
Thank you America for dropping little boy and fat man on
Japan which woke them up for good. Conquering the whole
world? nahh.. open more fashionable shops like Uniqlo.
Now thats awesome. Alright, enough with the craze, back
to work.

It backfires.

2009-04-07T21:43:00.003+08:00

Here was the connection I'd sought. The proof , however
remote, that somewhere in the same world where I lived,
you did exsist. - Stephanie Meyer

All I do is keep moving forward. No matter what happens in
my life, I keep moving forward. But walking past my old
secondary school brought so many memories. It reminded me
of all the shits i went through, all the happiness and all the people
I've met. Well I guess all of us have this moment in our lives
right? Well whatever happens, i will keep moving forward, cause
I know that will bring my life a better perspective and a better
reason.

But truth be that i miss you right now and seriously
what hurts the most was being super uber close.

Ex-ha-us-ted

2009-04-05T22:25:00.002+08:00

Walking around the same level for 5 hours and having an average
of 15 mins break for every 40 mins is not happening. It's super
tiring. And i doubt i will ever enjoy walking around Plaza Sing again.
Being a walking ad for singtel was overall not too bad i should say.
My legs are crying for some massage now. But im contented with
just being able to lie down. The highlight of the whole event would
be that i found $10, in the next hour i found additional $2, Then
half an hour before ending work i found a packet of marl reds.
That was a huge advantage for the sluts! hah! So now you know
what you are odd to do, if you are super broke. uh huh. The day
ended with a long 65 bus ride with the best friend.

Tooche.

Take me somewhere we can be alone?

2009-04-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

Super tired after all the bending done during photoshoot! and
walking round the whole school! annoying. super duper tired please.
Thank you lim xiao ping and atiqah azman for being my models!
I love you both sooo much! i owe you guys a pack of cigs and lunch
okays? hah! i love love you guys! And bush, imy! come back soon
please? and yaya is as busy as usual. ~bleahs. so atiqah, ryan and i
sheesha-ed. Went to CGH to visit feeza after her operation. Get
well soon babe! Pretty much that was today. The official stress
kicks in next week you guys, and my motivation to make through
all of this, BEER FEST ASIA 2009. I am going to confidently buy
the tickets just to push myself towards the finish line of this sem.
Then im a working class citizen for the next 6 weeks. GEEZ.
hopefully i get the preferred ad agency or production house.
And tp is in 2 weeks? Im nervous though. i feel like im going to
mount th kerb. Lets see how it goes. Oh and im going to be singtel's
walking ad for tmr? why not right? dont laugh if you see me.
sluts!

Goodnights.

And I said,
"Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think-"

Super Slut!

2009-04-01T22:24:00.002+08:00

I finally found a girl who actually takes photo of
her vaginal discharge and post it on a public blog.
The image is so disturbing, it's haunting ah sial!
And i just found out, she's the girl from tp that
likeS RISHI! hahaha. lucky you are in France dude!
Or else she will cum on your face every fucking day!
Seriously people, SPAM HER TAG BOARD!
IF YOU DIDNT KNOW IM
SUNDAL SHALINI TROUBLE GOVINDASAMY!
i like the smell of trouble now... hmmm.. yummyyyy...

http://amritasasylum.blogspot.com/

Changi

2009-03-31T21:56:00.002+08:00

SO i had to take pictures for graphic design tomorrow. I had my
romantic stroll at Changi Broadwalk with myself. Besides the piping
sun shining right at me, everything else was beautiful. Who knew
the freakiest place in the east of Singapore could hold some beauty
to it. The aftermath of the bending, lying down, squarting and walking
for 2 hours is agonizing.

tooche!

lovefool.

2009-03-30T23:52:00.002+08:00

I couldnt smile like i meant it for the past few days. Not talking
to you was getting to me. Then suddenly you came online, i
caught myself smiling like ive never smiled before. Something's
going on between us. It's good to know that at least you bothered
apologising. Im not sure what's going on. I cant think straight.
But all i know is that i want to enjoy talking to you like i always do.
And im going to have fun and screw all the reality. And maybe
im just to the road of getting hurt.... but right now i dont want
to care about it. Just not yet.

*you give me something that makes me feel alright,
this could be nothing, but im willing to give it a try..

Reality check.

2009-03-29T14:37:00.004+08:00

Hi there! I have been honestly trying to run away from the fact of where
our world is heading towards. But i was somehow "forced" to check reality
in church today. Seriously my senior pastor is wise and blessed man!
thank you GOD for pastor rony. Anyhoos back to the topic. I have alot
i want to say after watching this video. Dont mind me talking like there's
no tomorrow. Let me set you in the right mood even before i say anything.
Watch this video with an open heart you guys, and if you are smart you
wont ignore it.

I m sure you have watched the video. And it's not something many of us want to
hear. Especially knowing that the world's police man is in deep shit. But im quite
disturbed you guys. I mean everything, and literally everything is not certain.
It's not nice knowing that by 2012 the great United States of America is just
going to be another undeveloped country like lets say India or something. How
can that be possible? But then again i wouldnt want to question this guy. I mean
look at him, Gerald Celente predicted most of America's economic crisis. He
forecasted 1987 Crash, Soviet Union Collapse, 1997 Asian Crash, Subprime
Crash, US$ Crash, 2008 Crash and etc. I have done my research and yes,
i believe it will happen. He's not demon possessed or anything i suppose.
I mean he is the CEO OF TRENDS RESEARCH INSTITUTE. It's all based
on research, he's 100% awesome predictionist. Think about it, to bail
AIG out what is Washington doing? simple print more and more money
Which is worth nothing because American is in debt of trillions of dollars.
How can they bail AIG out when they themselves are in deep shits. Well
I personally like Obama. He has an awesome persona. And you really cant
blame him for all these shits that are happening. He's just very unlucky
to rule America at it's worst stage in history. And if i were him, i would
pump in money just like he is doing right now just to delay the total collapse
of the moneytary system. You cant blame him i suppose. Think about
it, what is out world coming to? We leave in uncertain times where the
only great escape would be to look up and wait upon rapture to happen.
Well this is when i stop freaking you guys out further and stop. There's
more i would love to say but i suppose not today. I'll leave you guys to
think and please set your lives right as our end days are drawing near.
Trust me i remind myself about the same issue all the fucking time.
Lets pray for America to make it through you guys, After all they would
have to film eclipse and breaking dawn there too you know? hah!

too much democracy becomes lawlessness.

I hate this part right here!

2009-03-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

1) im getting really tired waiting for you. (boy 1)
2) i wish you could piggy back me again. (boy 2)
3) i liked you seeing you again. (:
4) i wish i could forget about school and happily party.

Okay clearly im bored. And im tired. Very tired.
FUCKING TIRED WAITING FOR YOUU I SWEAR! ARGHHH!
im this close to give up. which i think i will
soon. Dont mind my bullshits please.

Oh and happy 21st birthday vicky! nice seeing you
after so long bro.

happy sat night assoles, im off to watch ghost whisperer.

Freaking talented!

2009-03-27T01:49:00.003+08:00

Okay this isnt just another video, you are going to miss out on an amazing talent
if you dont watch this! seriously. Im speechless. Freaking talented, kudos!

If you seek amy

2009-03-26T16:59:00.002+08:00

Okay i have no idea why I am friggin hooked on this song, thanks ah nad!
But i think it's so cool please! IF YOU SEEK AMY is such an awesome way to put
F.U.C.K ME ! hah! anyhoos, please be real? i beg you?

x.o.x.o
blair you are being sooo sundal please!

You cant feel anything.

2009-03-23T13:38:00.003+08:00

Everything around me is fucked up. And getting an E grade which
you dont deserve doesnt feel good alright. But i think that can be
changed. And my love life isnt anything good either. Truth is i dont
have a love life? hah! Here's the deal, what i want, i cant have. So
im trying to move past it. Im trying. And getting stuck in between
2 people you love isnt easy either. It hurts cause you just want to
smack them on their heads and make things alright, then just
give them a hug to make up. But what can I do if people make
their choices right? Oh wells i love you both. And im NOT picking
sides. Im going to stay right still. Life cant be that crude to me
right? Thats why I saw the zocard for BEERFEST ASIA 2009
today. Which made my morning. 100 kinds of beer. Of course
i will be there. I dont care who's following me who's not. Cause
trust me i can do this on my own. And the other thing that made
me laugh, pigeons eating sardines! someone might have dropped
it, so it became lunch for the pigeons. I wish i brought my cam
along to snap a shot of it. But oh wells, i will not forget what i saw.

Have a great day ahead!

Running back through the fire,
when there's nothing left to say,
It's like chasing the very last train,
when it's too late..
It tears me up, I tried to hold on
but it hurts too much, I tried
to forgive but it's not enough
to make it all okay..

What's your color?

2009-03-22T01:31:00.003+08:00

Amara happend. Attica happened. We had fun! We did our thing!
And what happens at amara stays at amara? (: And i got piggybacked,
all the way from clarke quay to amara! (sorry i just had to say it, hah!)

Attica and amara

We are kinky basturds!

Krazy

2009-03-18T19:22:00.003+08:00

This is utterly insane! I am dying to talk to you.
Even if this is going to end up to be nothing. I am
willing to try, I am hell yeah prepared! The first thing
i do when i get home, switch on the lappy and sign into
gtalk JUST SO THAT I TALK TO YOU! and yes i literally
wait for you online for hours! And you're having a bad fever
now :(( please get well soon okays? i'll pray for you.
Okay i bet thousands of people have no idea what im
blabbering about. Well i will explain further when things
get more stable, promise!

*amara tomorrow babyy!
& YES IM STILL WONDERING IF I SHOULD BRING MY LAPPY
ALONG OR JUST SCREW IT AND HAVE FUN WITH THE GIRLS?!

My North Indian Boy

2009-03-18T01:05:00.002+08:00

Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New Delhi, I'd love to see TM.
I really want to come pick it with you.
You'll be my North Indian Boy. North Indian Boy.

Can we get away this weekend.
Take me to Bombay.
Let's go shopping maybe then we'll go to a Cafe.
Let's go on the elephant.
Take me to your hood.
I never been to Bangalore and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to death I'm lovin' those Shell Toes.
Walkin' that walk.
Talk that slick talk.
I'm likin' this North Indian Boy. North Indian Boy.

NEEL MUKHERJI YOU ARE THE BEST I CAN EVER GETT!!!

OH.MY.FUCKING.GOD

2009-03-15T23:02:00.002+08:00

NO FUCKING WORDS ARE NEEDED.

UNITED, MAN UNITED!

2009-03-15T15:21:00.003+08:00

Watched Man utd vs liverpool "clash at the quay" at
clarke quay central yesterday! But before that the girls,
ryan and i had to cheer for our respective TEAMS!
apparently we get paid and a cup of free beer during the
match. ryan and i are man utd fans and you know
who the others are supporting. So we lost 4-1. disappointed?
hell yeah. but oh well, we were just not in luck we missed
like lets say 5 shots? The appetizing news would be that
we are still top of the table. So dont keep your hopes up
high liverfools! but i was still waiting for some good ol'
fight between the man utd and livepool fans! missed it please.
Hah! Oh and yes amara coming thursday (:

Take me home United Road
To the place that I belong
To Old Trafford to see United
Take me home United Road..

GLORY, GLORY MAN UNITED
GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED
GLORY GLORY MAN UNITED
AS THE REDS GO MARCHING
UP, UP, UP!!

Club zara

2009-03-14T01:26:00.002+08:00

It was devesh's advanced birthday at club zara. Had my
fun with the the people there. Especially the girls! Love you
xp and tiqa! And thank you devesh, devesh's mum and dad
for inviting us! HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY AGAIN!

x.o.x.o

*my best sundal bestie is back! love you SEAHHH!
(inside joke!)

nic!

devesh the birthday boy! (:

the birthday boy's fav sign!